I plunged myself in work and school. A friend passed away a couple months ago. I gave up my social interactions to the outside world to only a literal handful of people.
Now I am in my final Term of Culinary school. Accepted a 6 month Culinary program to Disney in FL to fill in the gaps before my escape of the East Coast. I have never been more ready to create a final resting place for my life one the west coast. My goals are coming to a close.
As for my personal life. Dating scene: I was loosely seeing a Nurse for a few months and boy I tell you. He was a trip. A child. Selfish and just not worth my time. Tip number one: Don’t date anyone that clearly doesn’t have any friends and doesn’t understand grieving.
I met another guy with good chemistry, Bio Chemist to be exact. We met at a bar, had a great time. We hung out a few times here and there and however our life tracts and things, it was just not compatible. We talk here and there about sports, life little shits it throws at us.. But nothing ever more came of it. Bio guy was cool and I am glad that out of it all and the crazy life that is mine right now it’s just friendship I gained out that. He is just apart of the guys that I could just chill with watch sports have a few beers.. However a simple contradictory flaw I found with him. He is on the hunt for a girl of religion that is grounded. However he wont give up his Sunday sports or you know a little weed here and there. Hmm.. Well good luck find your religious lady that does the entire church thing, that is drug free and allows Sunday sports as an excuse for no church. Tip number two: Don’t date a guy that is kinda confusing.
I tried the Tinder thing.. again….
I met Country Boy. NC super country. Perhaps too much for me to handle. He was sweet. Too sweet. Had a couple of dates and at one point I just couldn’t. His humor was not on par to mine.. Really not much to say. I knew he liked me, but I wasn’t feeling it and when I dove deeper in my work, I hate to say it but I never thought of what country guy was doing. Tip number three: Don’t date a guy that you never think about.
There was spastic meets and greets. Completely over it.
Then there is Now.
There is Amazing Dad. Now, before you even go thinking that this is some old guy. He is actually only a few years older. Which generally is something I like. He works in the industry managing multiple restaurants, so he understand the extreme hard work I am putting myself through and respects me for my little time I have available. He has a son. That is a toddler. Handsome little bug and sharp as a whip. The amount of similarities are crazy and our ideals are match point. I also really like our differences. He is so tall, that I my head rests right below his sternum and its the perfect hug height for me to feel small and safe. He listens to Country music which for me is bleh.. but never puts down the things I enjoy. He never lets me buy anything for our dinner nights unless its wine and he might have a glass, but he prefers beer. He doesn’t eat sweet things and loves spicy. If your wondering about baby Momma.. well she is around and that’s where things are sticky. There is always drama when the mother is not in the picture completely and is a very selfish person. Prime example would be refusing to take her child on a designated time because of this “new friend”. Her response was that she didn’t want Amazing Dad to have “romantic time” with me so being the mother of the year chose to not spend time with her son. So drama. I enjoy the company of little bug. He would never bother me and my time with Amazing Dad. Because out of it all, he is doing his best as a full time single parent and these guys together ultimately makes my heart melt.
The Now and how bonkers and the stress I put in.. I am happy that I felt a big part of myself pull back together after being with these two boys the past 6 weeks. I am holding onto the time I have with these two till I leave for 6 months. I know it will be painful but the wonderful time I get to have now is worth it.
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