Today I will take you through my daily day.
Lately I am waking up at 8:30am, typically before the alarm goes off. I get up. Feed Miss Kitty. I pick up her bowl set it on the washer and put 3 table spoons of her kibble in it. I take her food and just around the corner next to her fountain, I put my right hand out an arms length away. She immediately nuzzles my hand and waits for me to set down her bowl. She then sits and waits till I tell her “ok”. I browse the internet for about an hour. I consider coffee, but I don’t do it. I grab my propel water instead. I don’t eat breakfast, but instead consider going to the gym. I still don’t do it. If mornings keep coming easy like this, then I could do it.
Lately I up get ready for work and leave 30 mins prior for possible traffic on the highway. I am at work at 10am till 4pm. I get home about 4:20 depending on traffic. I feed miss kitty again and get ready for class. I leave for class about 5pm to get there at 5:20pm. From there I work till 11pm. Coming home I am exhausted. I am greeted sometimes by Miss Kitty. I take a deep breathe and work out in my head that I am ok. I take my uniform off, I shower do some homework in bed and around 1:30-2am I am going to sleep. My text book lives in my bed, I still have my suitcase on my bed and my laptop plays something to make me feel not alone.
Friday I am forcing myself to see people after my 9:30 class ends. This visit will be me learning how to play an instrument. I impulsively bought a ukulele. I miss the live music in my home. My friend is extremely excited to teach me, I started making a list of songs I want to learn and though I don’t sing, I will. Saturday I pull 10 hour shift. I don’t know if I will be working Sunday, other wise that is 8 days in a row of working. I don’t like this. I wish I could go out an experience life. The sacrifice I make to keep this roof above my head, experience in my field and networking for when I move out of NC. No matter what happens, I am leaving NC. I am going to leave out west.
My motivations have changed, Its not much now, but it could be just enough.