My first Ukulele lesson was good.
My friend came to the apartment and brought me a book. He gave me homework to do and reading. I understand the tuning and some strumming. I am learning the C chord, F and G. The transitioning between them is going to be tricky. It was relaxing and I was actually pretty happy with what I was doing.
My life revolving around work, school and mostly friends right now has been a increasing my levels of being positive. I still feel extremely guarded of my heart. I am afraid to even conceive a thought of putting myself out there that wasn’t a business transaction or even just trying to know someone.
After my lesson, I went outside for the first time today. The sun was warm on my face. I could breathe today. I went out and my energy drinks were on sale. I can start my stock pile. I got a little snack also from the store and a protein smoothy drink. Its still no where near what I would be eating, but its something. I keep telling myself that. Its something, Just a little more each day.
I need to focus, I need to live.