There has been so many days where I am been good and better, but then there are the more moments through out a day where a shadow creeps upon me. I have not recovered from one of my classes and I was approached yesterday to not give up and fight for my grades when every day I am exhausted from pulling extra hours for bigger pay checks. Financial Aid has contacted me because of my inability to make monthly payments and is putting next term in a compromising position till I make a large sum deposit. Then on top of that of my expensive rent and my car repairs. The anxiety of taking on too much now is catching up. I must choose education over Shelter.. Sadly I choose shelter, I must choose the 30$ a day to put towards my car to get to work and back than food for myself.
This Shadow hovers over me and its cold breathing on my neck. I am tired all the time but I continue to not sleep well.