I am very certain my friend was drunk on something. Or maybe he was high?
Let me give you the run down. In 2007 I moved to a small mountain town. It was new years and I was 20 years old. I met Dave. He was painfully shy around me. I was in 2 relationships the entire time we have know each other up to this day.
Dave served in the Army. I have the most respect for soldiers and veterans. Being a military bratt and both parents that are veterans I am very proud to know the people I do and when they are down I am I try to let them know that I am here and you are loved and missed. Dave has had a very rocky adventure sense his last tour. He is struggled to find stability is this crazy world. He would message me every once in awhile and we would catch up. He always complained about a girl he was seeing.
Tonight was different. Its been 10 years of knowing him and maybe 5 years of hearing his voice first the first time tonight.
He made a confession to me tonight. 5 Hours apart, he confesses that he has feelings for me. Sense the day he met me and how utterly scared he was to even talk to me. I question this entire conversation because his words were slurred. He sounded tired and sad. He sounded desperate for affection. 10 years and I couldn’t return it.
I really hope he wasn’t sober. Should I call him tomorrow to check up on him?
I just can’t trust. I can’t let anyone in yet to see me. I can’t let this man feel my hurt.